This post for me is kind of a bitter sweet one! I am faced with countless emotions .... My reactions have been many .... I have smiled, I have cried, I have laughed, I have been silenced. For any mother or parent for that matter that reads this you will know my heart! For anyone that is not yet a parent, my prayer is that one day you too will relate!
I don't think that any other title could be more appropriate or more fitting! Young or Old we all face seasons of change! It is a way of life! Where we say goodbye to one season in the same breath we are saying hello to another. The second hand is always pressing forward, on to another minute, which leads to another hour, that creates another day ... yet it is moments like this where time stands still and you are caught in between goodbye and hello!
Two weeks ago I had the privilege of watching my Anna-Claire graduate Pre-Kindergarten! To date, it was probably one of the proudest moments for me as a parent! I watched my grown baby walk down an aisle in her white cap and gown, take her seat and look at me with such confidence ... all while "Pomp and Circumstance" played on a small CD player in the back of the room! The Pledge of Allegiance was we recited and songs were performed that a few days prior had been rehearsed hour after endless hour! Her walk was tall and her stride was long as she went to accept her long anticipated certificate. Her pride on display for the world to see as that Pre-K diploma rested tightly clinched in her hand. It was absolutely breath taking!
As white caps were thrown in the air, I couldn't help but reflect on the past five years! Five years! I have spent the last five years watching my baby grow into this extraordinary, young person that stands before me! I have been a part of every first in her life thus far! I have toted that carrier around with her precious little body snuggled up in it! I have strapped her in her car seat time after time after time! I have dropped her off and picked her up many a time from her daycare! I have heard account upon account of what happened each day at "school" down to minuet detail of what was for lunch and snack! I have sang "Bringing Home a Baby Bumble Bee" until I am blue in the face! I have taken home and stored literally every piece of art work brought home and proudly displayed on the fridge! If I have zipped that little fall jacket once, I have zipped it a hundred times. I have been to every parent child party, every parent teacher conference and yes I have even mastered the warrior pose thanks to Pre-K Yoga Class. I have given high fives at every Green Tree window it seems. I have been shown and explained every center in every class! And I have seen that precious face light up brighter than the sun itself as she darts to the playground gate to meet me after a long tiring day! ...
I don't think there was a memory I didn't recall as those white caps floated to the ground! And that was that! In that moment her Pre-School days had come to an end! The graduation reception was attended, the cupcakes were eaten, pictures were taken and hugs were given! As much as I wanted that fleeting moment to last forever, I knew it was time to tuck the past five years away deep in my heart!
As I said goodbye to that season I said hello to a new one .... Kindergarten is now only three days away! And I have come to accept that in three days Casey nor I will sign her in and take her in to the building, she will be walking into a new room where she will spend 40+ hours a week engaging in numerous activities, she will be introduced to a new teacher that will in a year give her the tools she needs to further learn and explore, she will meet new friends that will soon become her kindergarten confidants, she will eat lunch in a real cafeteria that will house all the daily "table talks" that will occur, she will experience so many new and wonderful things.
As excited as I am to say hello ... it is equally as hard to say goodbye ....
